The appointment with the vet was in the afternoon and I tried to make her last hours as comfy as possible. Luckily I still had some of the painkillers that I got for her and she even nibbled a bit of lettuce. During those hours I always had one thought in my head: „These are the last minutes you have with her...at 3 pm you will have to say goodbye.“ But I am glad that there is the possibility to send them on their journey because sometimes they want to leave but can't. Ruth surely would have died eventually on her own, but it would have taken days and she would have been in pain. I let them die naturally when I know that it will be peaceful and painfree because it surely is nicer to die in your home, surrounded by friends.
We buried her in the evening and – so very fitting – it started to rain as we walked into the forest to find a nice place for her. It was not only raining, it came down in sheets. We were drenched to the skin within seconds. I was already completely crushed, but when I laid her into that tiny hole I got even more sad as I couldn't see a thing in all that rain that spattered my glasses. I have buried many, many animals during the years, it aches the same every time. But I am glad that she is reunited with Emma now, painfree and at peace.
Farewell Ruth, thank you for a splendid and funny time! We will never forget you!